Wednesday, June 03, 2020

#JusticeforGeorge: The need for a conversation on anti-Blackness

It's heartwarming to see folks particularly immigrants and/or Muslims in the United States who usually are on the I don't-talk-politics-ever side of things make supportive statements or share content in relation to the uprising for social justice and equity for Black people. For the first time many immigrant dominant mosques and immigrant oriented organizations are making statements about the elephant in the room they've been quiet about, and let me also tell you, complicit in.

I used to get called out constantly for trying to point out problematic attitudes, behaviors, statements in the communities I belong to by way of racial and national origin and religious practice (Arab, Egyptian, African, immigrant, and Muslim).

I also try to understand that Institutionalized racism and the history of racial inequity in the United States are not something that people who're not from here 'just get' or learn about in schools in our countries and you could live here for years and still don't get it if you don't get the right exposure, and if you don't talk to Black people and learn from them.

That being said, it's very crucial right now more than ever during this historical moment that a candid conversation about anti-Blackness within those communities takes place, that people realize that by being a minority or a member of a marginalized group in the United States isn't an excuse for ignoring or perpetuating oppression and that it's better for everyone to come together and form alliances than be divided.

Wednesday, May 06, 2020

#Coronadiaries: The Sanctity of human life in a pandamic



The Sanctity of Life:

From Wikipedia:

In religion and ethics, the inviolability or sanctity of life is a principle of implied protection regarding aspects of sentient life that are said to be holy, sacred, or otherwise of such value that they are not to be violated as a violation. 
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As a Muslim who's striving to be more observant to God's guidance, by doing more good in the world and not doing harm as much as I can, and by standing up for the truth even if it's against my own preferences.


The general objective of the Islamic teachings /law can be summarized in the following:

"The attainment of good, welfare, advantage, benefits and warding off evil, injury, loss of the creatures". 

The second most important principle of these general objectives is "The preservation of human life/soul" حفظ النفس. 

I had to say all of these things to explain why I have been feeling very disturbed and distressed, maybe a little bit shocked and disappointed too, as I continue to see how some people are reacting and acting towards the current pandemic particularly in the United States. 

I said the following as a response to an online thread where some Americans in my local community were debating the protests against the current lockdown, a pretty soft lockdown and the least we can do to protect our lives and those of other people in my opinion for the scale of danger that we are all under. 


"It's mind-blowing to those of us who are not from here to watch people wanting to open up the country with the highest number of positive and death cases in the entire world and to also see other people defending their right to protest and the Constitution even if they disagree with them, nobody else in the world does that, who gives a damn about political correctness when it means innocent people losing their lives! It's so freaking scary to be stuck here."


I still had to listen to some lecture me on democracy, freedom of speech, and the American constitution so I said:


"Good luck with American exceptionalism. Good luck trying to get morons with rifles to express their opinions without causing harm because they have the right to do so.
It's not surprising that there aren't any similar idiotic reactions from other peoples in other democratic and constitutional nations under lockdown all over the entire world, only here. That definitely says a whole lot about the dominant American mindset."

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Seeing people say things like: Some people will just die, people die every day, we can't stay in our safe homes with tons of food and entertainment forever and we need to get our hair and nails done, while thousands are losing their lives and many are struggling with their health makes me ask many questions about the logic that guides morality for some people. 

What is more important? Is it life itself? Or money, entertainment, and the freedom to express hatred and carlessness?
 
What is the definition of freedom in this context?
Where does it stop? What is the meaning of freedom if it entails causing harm to yourself and others? 

What good are laws for if they discriminate in punishment between people based on class, race, country of origin, or any other differences? 

As someone who lived through political turmoil and instability over a decade, and witnessed people fight and die for true freedoms and to have access to basic human rights, I find it very hypocritical and silly that those who recognize the danger would still be encouraging the behavior of irresponsible selfish people in the name of "Democracy and Freedom of Speech", instead of calling it out. 

For me, and I'm sure for so many others, there is nothing more important than the life of an innocent human being. 

Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. once said: 

“We will have to repent in this generation not merely for the hateful words and actions of the bad people, but for the appalling silence of the good people.” 

More than 50 years later, this is still a very true reality.

Wednesday, April 22, 2020

#Coronadiaries: Ramadan 2020 under quarantine


The blessed Holy Month of Ramadan starts tomorrow night, during this time Muslims are encouraged to practice several forms of personal discipline and acts of charity to support those in need which helps them reflect on all the blessings they have such as food, material wealth, health, safety, and others.

When you're practicing intermittent fasting from food and drink from sunrise to sunset the purpose isn't that you'd be experiencing hunger and thirst, or that you suffer, but most importantly it's training yourself on self-restraint, not eating all the time, any time, and all you want, not having access to the things you desire right away and being okay with that.


When you give the needy from what God has blessed you with, you're simply showing thanks and gratitude for what you've been given initially, you come to appreciate God's provision and not take it for granted.

While many might be disappointed this year, it's actually a whole lot better and more spiritual to be spending Ramadan while quarantined, you get to worship and reflect without showing off or feeling proud, you're not being seen by others when you stand in night prayers, everything you choose to do remains between you and your Lord.

Sometimes the social aspects and folklore distract us or get in the way of our sincerity and why we are doing what we are doing. Think about this self-isolation as a blessing in disguise and an act of worship. I wish you all a blessed Ramadan, please reach out to me if you want to talk, vent or need advice.

اللهم بارك لنا في رمضان وأعنا على ذكرك وشكرك وحسن عبادتك فيه وارزقنا العبادة دون شرك ولا رياء ولا فخر 

Wednesday, April 15, 2020

Mosque closure in the US: A marginalized Muslim perspective

I wanted to share an unpopular perspective regarding the closure of mosques coming from someone who came to terms finally with accepting not having access to a fulfilling communal Muslim experience after trying for so long and failing.

I'm actually not sad about mosque closure in the US mainly because I simply had access to none for the longest time in my life and had to find spiritual alternatives to stay connected to my faith.

I, for one, am not upset about the closure of many of those ethnocentric spaces/male hangout clubs, nor the suspension of out of touch, out of reality, and often time misogynistic sermons and practices I've seen around where I live and in my travels around the US.

I think many Muslims have been struggling and they deserve something better than that. And I hope and pray it can be an opportunity for other Muslims -particularly those in leadership positions- to listen, reflect, and re-examine the disparity of accessibility, the lack of touch with reality, and the toxicity that's prevalent in many spaces even though they may not experience it themselves because of certain privileges.

Many converts have lonely Ramadan experiences because they don't have family and aren't easily integrated or accepted into the larger so-called Muslim community, and many immigrants who leave family behind permanently and don't have a support system experience the same at varying degrees. Many Muslims have been deprived of being in the mosque and aren't just lazy or less righteous.

My husband and I had an incredible Ramadan in Cairo in 2015 but the past few years have been really tough especially for me having to constantly compare my life experience and expectation of the holy month as someone who grew up in a busy traditional produce market in a poor packed neighborhood of beloved Cairo, Egypt, it can't get any spiritual, festive, and joyous as it'd back there. I can't compare praying in a non-ventilated tiny basement-like what they to offer women and children in mosques around me in the US to having the choice of praying in different open-air masterpieces from the 12th century in the heart of the city of 1000 minaret, for example.

Our disintegration from a larger Muslim body here over the years has been very eye-opening and transformative on so many levels, and I'm grateful for it. I'm also grateful for all of the incredible opportunities and people who made things easier at times.

This year I thought to myself a few months ago that I should probably not think about what Ramadan will look like, I blocked the ideas completely to spare myself the worry, and then subhanAllah, Allah had this planned for us on the largest scale possible. 

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Photos: 

-Women section in a 3-stories-mosque in Downtown Chicago, Illinois. 


A female political science scholar giving a lecture in one of Cairo's historical mosques' main area a few years back.


Monday, March 23, 2020

#Coronadiaries 2: Collectively experiencing my personal burdens

The U.S. Citizenship and Immigration Services office in Tukwila, Wash. The agency said on its website that seeking treatment or preventive services for the virus would not adversely affect green card applicants.
Credit...Jason Redmond/Agence France-Presse — Getty Images

It's Thursday, March 19th, 2020.

5 days now since I last left our place, I'm surprised that I've been pretty okay with not being able to go out when up until last week I used to go out every single day. There's something new happening every single day so I guess having this psychological expectation in the back of your mind kind of keeps you looking forward to something.

I've spoken to my mother back home every day now which is also an update to our previous once a week if any routine.

Generally speaking, I'm finding a lot of relief in sharing so many of my own chronic emotional burdens with a whole lot more people these days. I haven't been able to go back to my country for over 4 years now and it's the longest time in my entire life that I've not seen my parents, family members, and my beloved home city. So much has changed for me since I left as a 25-year-old, and it's been tremendously difficult seeing my parents age solely via video-call conversations over a really bad internet connection. It's been hard being unable to travel freely as so many people do but also not having a clear answer on why I simply can't.

When air travel was affected drastically by the recent worldwide pandemic and eventually suspended in many parts of the world including where I live and where my family lives I found some relief in not having to worry about this being something I'm dealing with exclusively. Now and for the first time in forever, I'm not alone in this, and I don't have to have this conversation about my travel plans back home or the lack of it to everyone.

Yesterday, the USCIS, the immigration authority for those of you who may not be familiar, announced closing all of their in-person operations until at least the beginning of April, something that brought both anxiety and relief to me knowing that I'm not the only one affected by this closure.

Being a woman immigrant and a Muslim at this time and place hasn't been the easiest experience in the past few years, it comes with a lot of challenges on top of them is social isolation. Now for the first time, millions of people will be experiencing social isolation under a new guise and for a different reason, I'm learning about a new concept called social distancing.

Tuesday, March 17, 2020

#Coronadiaries: Day 2 at home in the US


I thought that going back to blogging and putting my thoughts out there can't be any more relevant considering this time and place. I wanted to share some of my thoughts while life slows down a little for the entire world in this very unique and uncertain moment. 


Today Monday, March 16th, 2020 is our first official work from home day in our city on the east coast of the United States, particularly for many of us who work in the field of education. Universities and schools as well as adult education centers such as my workplace had to shut down for the rest of the month and until a further notice. In my city, there are 9 cases confirmed of Covid 19, more people are waiting for their test results to come out. The city just announced halting non-essential businesss for the next 2 weeks.

People around are still going about their daily business as normal which I kinda understand although I don't nessecarily like, public transportation is not as busy as it usually is for a large metropolitan city like our's but it still isn't at the level of cleanliness or sanitation I wish it was at.

The one thing that I'm thinking about a lot is the consequences of cancellations and delays in immigration cases, medical procedures, and things of that nature, as well as the messaging available for folks who don't undertsand English who live in the United States and don't have access to information. I want to do more to help folks understand what's going on and what they need to do to protect themselves and their loved ones.

I can't grasp yet how having to stay at home for an extended period of time will look like for someone like me who works with people closely and finds so much joy in connecting with others but I also think I'm very blessed to be able to stay home when so many others don't have this privilge. It's also incredibly beautiful to see all the good that's being done in response.

An immigrant English teacher in a big city in the United States.

Monday, March 16th, 2020
#CoronaDiaries #Socialdistancing